Dark Secret Revealed

We all know princess_9234. We've known her to be nice, to be kind, and sometimes, to others, a little "mean." What she revealed to us after two years really struck me, and I can't imagine being in a situation like that.
princess_9234; I was on holiday, and I was staying in a house with my aunty, and my cousin [boy]. Whilst on holiday, my Mum & Aunty went out shopping, leaving only me, my sister & my brother home, oh, and of course, my cousin. My sister was on the deck playing with her dolls, and my brother was across the road, playing with some foreign kid, who was the same age as him. I was on the sofa, watching TV, and then since nothing was on I closed my eyes, but I wasn't asleep. My cousin came in. A few years ago he'd divorced with his wife, leaving him back with his Mum. Anyways, he came in and layed behind me, I pretended to be asleep, and then all of a sudden he started to whisper in my ear, asking me what I wanted for lunch, he then turned me over, but I kept my eyes shut, to scared to open them, and then he kissed me in my lips. It was disgusting. I hated every single second, I opened my eyes a tiny bit, to see and I could see him moving closer, I wanted to cry, but I kept on the pretend that I was asleep. He started ti touch my back, stroking it. I felt physically sick. I hated it all. I then thought of something. I fell off the sofa as an excuse to give myself to 'wake up'. I 'woke up' and then said I'm going upstairs to my room. I got up to my room and closed my eyes hoping to get a nap and forget what was happening. I felt sick, and the thought of it hurt so much. I closed my eyes trying to get rid of the thought of it all. It wasn't my fault he was so desperate. I was only 12. Ffs. I heard my door open and I opened my eyes a little but and saw that it was him. I screamed inside, hoping he wasn't back. He whispered my name, checking if I was awake. I didn't want to respond; I wanted him to leave. Leave me. I turned over the other way, hoping he'd get it, and leave. But he did the complete opposite and got in the bed. He shook me; to check for certain if I was awake. I was hurting inside, a pain I never felt. He pulled me towards him, and kissed me. I wanted to throw up all over him. I hated him forever, I decided on that moment. I winced my eyes open to see that he was enjoying every second of this. He was taking advantage of the time, the fact that no one was around, and of me. He then took my right leg and put it over his, I still stayed still, but then moved it off him pretending I was asleep, and all I was doing was just turning over. He turned me back over, and put my leg over his. He continued kissing me; I was going to throw up. I kept on wishing that my Mum would come home, come home quick, but I knew she wouldn't be back till atleast 7:00 and it was only 2:00 at the time. All of a sudden he lept off me, and I felt relieved. I winced my eyes open to find out that he'd lept off me because my sister and bother had came in asking for food. They saved me. He then took them downstairs and made them sandwiches. When he left I jumped off my bed and locked the door. I said I was having a shower; but really I kept locked in that room for 2 hours crying, and crying, and crying. He then left me after that. My Mum came home and for the rest of the holidays I kept away from his as much as I could. Even now when the phone ring and it's him, I hand the phone straight away to someone else. He's getting married in a few weeks. He'll have someone else to go 'get it on' with. I hate myself for all of it.

I'm absolutely disgusted in this, because no one should do this. And even worse, it was her own cousin. Poor girl. I'd hate to have to keep that secret locked inside for two years, not knowing what people would think of me if I told them.

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